It's been a long time,huh.

Well,the past few months have been really
bumpy for me..
And somehow it affected alot of other people
as well..I never thought I'd get myself into
this sought of mess but..Oh well..you make
mistakes and you learn from them..
In my case..I made the mistake and I still
continued to wallow in it..
I know..Dumb right? Just plain dumb.
But i still did it..It's done.

But as I said to someone before..
Sometimes it takes tragedies to make you
realise how important things or people are
to you..
I neglected and ignored my family's words and
went against them..
Big Mistake..
Now I'm left with a perforated eardrum due to
assault.
My fault.I asked for it I guess.

I've put it all behind me now but I still get reminded
of it when I go for checkups.
It's a nightmare that I thought I'd never live.
Hey,I don't wish for anyone to ever go through this
pain.You'd just rather live your second life instantly.
I've got a blood clot in that perforated ear drum and
it's to be removed in 2 months.They tried removing it
sometime back but it hurt like hell so they stopped.
Know what? I'm just gonna go ahead and remove it now
because I'm sick of not being able to hear well..
I can't hear music properly using earphones.I DO NOT LIKE.
So I'm gonna get it removed soon and I hope I can make
the appointment on a day where Baby can follow me.
But then again I'm wondering if she'd be able to take it
without getting upset.Hmmm..

Anyway,I have ever right to feel contented now..
I'm gonna be starting my school soon..
*rubs my hands with glee..
My dream's finally here..
After a long year of wasting my life.
I'm' finally gonna be doing what I love and guess what..
I get to do it every damn day and the rest of my life!!!!
That's something for me I guess..
I just have to keep myself on track and no matter what,I
cannot afford to lose out.
Hope everything goes well..

I feel like the pieces of my life's starting to fall in it's
place now.But whatever obstacles come,I'll just face it like
anyone else would.I'm not gonna run away anymore..
I'm not afraid to shout at people whom I never thought I'd
shout at.
I'm not afraid to voice out any damn thing I should.
I'm not afraid to look into someone's eyes and tell him/her
off for whatever reason.
I'm just not gonna hide.
I'm gonna live by my rules this time.
I've been too soft-hearted and that's a known fact to people.
It's just a matter of time until it got the better of me and I
got hurt so badly.
So yeah..Things are gonna be different from now on.
But I'm still gonna be the same me.

Okay..Now that's done.
My bro's leaving for Taiwan tonight.
Gonna miss him alot when he goes.
3 weeks of not seeing him,even if it's just weekends when he
books out (althought I see him for bout 5 or so minutes)..
I'm still gonna miss him..
Somehow it seems that he's closer to us even more than before..
I'm lovin' that..:)
So I'm off to the airport tonight..
But having dinner at some place before that.

Baby's knocking off from work soon..
Oh! I'm supposed to call her now!

Laters..