Do they know it's Christmas?

You know..I seriously pity those you can't celebrate Christmas..
The poor..the orphans..the Tsunami victims..sigh..
I have every opportunity to indulge in any and everything..
But I choose not to..It's not like I have a choice anyway..
Everything that's not suppose to happen..happens..
It can't be helped..I believe they all happened for a reason..
It better be a good reason..because this year's Christmas SUCKS!
Wanna know why?
Here's why..

My dad's overseas..My grandma (my mum's mum) is ill..
So is my grandfather (my dad's dad)..He's in hospital..
And the hospital's in Johor..So he's spending Christmas there..
Away from his family..and on top of that..
My parents are rioting with my aunt and uncle and my other grandma..
It's become so bad that if I were to go near my uncle..My dad will say he
has a tendency to molest me or somethinglike that..
What the F**k! Why would he do that? He has a partner..(or two)..
But worse of all..I miss my source of Happiness..
I didn't get to see her on Christmas eve..nor today..
and i doubt i'll see her tomorrow?
I can't take all this..I really can't..
Maybe that's why I drank yesterday and today and..
Oh! tomorrow i'll be drinking too..I'm starting to think if this is becoming
my hobby..It really is fun..hmmm..

Anyway..I went to Indochine on Friday..the place rawks..!!
But it was super packed..It was not really that fun..
I saw Gough..Min Qi..and Regina? Oh well..don't know her..
Hmm..had fun and all..it seems Wayne's also been clubbing alot..
Hope she enjoys herself and stuff..
Hmm.New Years is coming..Man..I don't know what I'll be doing..
I'll be alone again I guess..If not..I can always call the fun group of ppl..
Gaya and the gang..or I could just stay home with my Ma..or bring her out
somewhere for drinks..Hmm..you know..I guess she's toned down quite abit..
Because she's so..i don't know..to me..she seems drugged..=)
But she lets me go clubbing and she lets me drink..with her..
and when I asked if she wanted to go drinking someday somewhere..
She said.."It better be soon or I'll just die here.." cool aye??
Well..that's my Mum for you..

I'm having a party tomorrow at my place..
The one I want to be there..can't be there..
Because of family restraints..Can't blame her though..
Her family's really stuck together like glue..
I really envy her family..Why can't mine be like that?
Maybe it's because each of us find joy in different things..
Whatever it is..this year's ending badly for me..
Alright..i'm sick now..and Christmas is ending in 5 minutes..
"Baby..let's spend the last few minutes in each other's arms.."
Of course..what could be more satisfying and soothing?

"Fall..on your knees..
Oh hear..the Angel voices..
Oh night..divine..
Oh night..When Christ was born..
Oh night..divine..
Oh night..Oh night divine.." -Oh Holy Night..