Hi..hello..
I know I've not been
blogging for quite some time..
I've been really busy these
days..;) And I enjoyed it..

On Tuesday..
We went to Hilton Hotel
for a superb and excellent
dinner..We had the attention
from every single one of the staff
at the restaurant..Partly because we
were the only ones there..and they
were very pleased to know that
my parents got married there 25
years ago..
I don't know why they were so excited
and everything..
The F&B manager came to talk to us..
(Boy,was he good looking!!)
The waiters and waitresses came to
talk to us..
(All not good looking..)
And OH MY GOD!!
The Chef came to talk to us..
(Now THAT'S good looking..) ;)
He asked us if we wanted to have a look
at the menu..So we were like.."Ok..sure."
Then after that he said..
I think I'd rather compose a menu
for you..and we were all shocked..
He looked really young..He said he started off
working with a michelin at 15!!
Oh man..!! He's really REALLY good...
Every dish that we were served..had some
alcohol in them..
(Yeah..I loved that alot..)
We had champagne and red wine and vodka..
(some in the food and some we drank)..
And by the time dinner was over..
Mum's face was super red! And dad
was talking rubbish already.. (Because he drank
alot already before going there...)
But my brother and I were still sober..
You know what?? I could never mix drinks..
Like..wine and something else..Or beer then
drink something else..
But now I can..I don't have to worry on my
eighteeth birthday..
Hmmm..So anyway..
We took pictures and I might put them up
tonight or something if I'm free..
I just keep forgetting to put the pics up..
Grrr...Will do that soon..

On Wednesday..
Skipped class in the morning..
Went for casting in the afternoon..
Came home..then went to meet Precious and
the girls for dinner..
Met most of the sec 1 juniors and I thought
they were alright..
But they acted very strange..
Then on the way home with Gris..I met
Emmelyn..Merissa..Clarissa..Gillian and
Cheryl on the bus..
Talked about band and stuff and I
heard that the teacher in charge is not
really keen on alumni performing..
Sigh..She just mentioned a couple
of weeks ago..that the band was too small and
needed people!!! Now she changes her mind..
Urgh!! I was thinking and maybe it's because
of favouritsm..Either that or not many want to
perform..Sigh..
Whatever la..Even if it's just helping them carry
the instruments..or helping them with this
and that..I'd be most glad to do it..
I love that band..
And that's what you do when you've been committed
to something for a long time..
Gee..

Yesterday..
Was my hectic day..had to run here and there for
classes and URGH!!! I didn't have time to eat
anything..But stuff really occupied my
mind so I didn't think much of feeding myself..
Hmm..Was supposed to meet Skye after classes
but I couldn't make it in time and so she went home..
I could've met her at the station near her house
but that bum didn't answer my calls and messages..

So Today..
I've to meet her outside her school to
pass her the stuff..Her school'd soooo FAR!!
(You owe me big time..SKYE!!!)
After that..I'll be heading to town
to meet my mum and go find my book..
Then maybe I can push a little here and there
and get her to buy me some stuff..;)

I know that Precious is upset that I can't
meet her today..
She wished that yesterday after her swimming
heats..I'd meet her and give her hug
but I had no energy to..
She wished that today she could meet me
and spend some time at my place..
But I have to go look for my stuff
and she's got extra classes..
Oh well..
I hope the absencemakestheheartgrowfonder
thingy work for us..;)

Off I go now..
My hands are shaking..
Sugar.I.Need.Before.I.Collapse.








Sing out a song and I'll be
there..By your side..

I know this is super duper late..

By a week..

But hey..I was really busy this

whole week..

Pics of the SJC Awards Ceremony

2006 ahead...;)

WOo hoo hoo!!!!
I asked my dad where
we're going tomorrow..
It's bloody hell gonna be
super grand..
Damn it..We're going
to Hilton!!!
I've never in my 17 years
of life heard or been told
that my parents' wedding
was held at Hilton..
Man..!! I was so damn shocked!!
I want my wedding to be held there
too!!
Well of course..it's not gonna be as
dirt cheap as it was back then
when they got married..
Ah..whatever!
I can't wait to go to Hilton!!!!
WhEEEEeeee!!!!

Hmm..so yeah..
I'm super bored now..
Waiting for my show
to start in a half an hour's time..
Urgh!! I'm so restless..
Ok..Precious called..
bye.




And baby..everytime you touch me..
I become a hero..

Sigh..
Now that Dad's home..
I can't do this..and I can't
do that..
I can't go out in the evenings
just to go to Compass and see
Precious and the girls..
I can't go out come back home as and
when I like..If not the talk about
the house being a 'hotel' will start
again..RAR!!

My brother of course, on the other
hand gets to do whatever he wants..
Because he's already 21..!!
Hmm..Can't wait for the day I turn
18..at least it'll be legal for me to do
this and that..without them getting
in the way..
As for the late nights..I very much
DOUBT things will change..
Well..maybe just a little..if I oush
my way out of it..Like I always do..;)

So yeah..Tonight I can't go to Compass
and meet Precious and Imai..Nadiah
didn't go to school I guess..
And tomorrow..Precious is free in the
afternoon so she'll come here then at
night..(OH, my GOD..I can't wait for
this..) At night..we're going for my
parents' anniversary dinner..!!
Woohoo!!!
Wherever we're going..it's gonna be
super grand and high class..!!
Hey..this opportunity doesn't always
fall in out hands k?
It's their Silver anniversary and it's
GOT TO BE good!!..;)
Oh! And I'll get to have dad's digicam
and take pics here and there..
That'll keep me occupied and
ignore the questions about classes..
Considering the fact that it's
CONFIRMED that I can't quite classes
eventhough they know how disgusting
they are and stuff..
Hmm..but then..thanks to Precious's
advice..I think I'll just continue the
dumb classes..and keep listening to
Precious's advice..
Thank you so much Precious..
For being there for me all the time
with no doubts whatsoever..;)

You know what?
Now when I want to tan..
It just keeps raining and raining..
Even if the sun's really bright and
sizzling..it doesn't stay that way for
long!..WHY???
I need to BAKE!!
Oh well..
If Precious feels like it tomorrow..
We shall go swimming and tan..
If not..watching Corpse Bride is no
problem at all for me..
;)

Dad's calling me out to eat satay now..
I'm full already!! Oh man.
By the way..I heard him mention
to my mum that he's glad to see me
a little more chubby..
NOOOOOOoooo!!
Sigh..so sad..
I gotta do something about it..

Thinking twice bout the satay now..
Hmmm..






I know I can..
Be what I wanna be..

I don't know what's
wrong with me..
I suddenly feel like crying..
I don't know if it's because of
my crimson tide..or something
else..
Argh!!
I just need company...
sigh..

I heard my Dad's flying from
Hong Kong already..
Going to the airport later..
Man..I've this excitement
feeling but also a hair-raising
feeling..
I've this thing about going to
the airport..
When I go there..I always feel like
something's going away from me..
Or like..Urgh..I don't know..
It's just a disturbing feeling..
;(
Ah well..
I have no choice but to go
because there's no one to
accompany my mum..
RAR!
I just hope I can go to
candy empire and phsyco
my mum into buying lots of
stuff..
I know I sound like a small
kid..but..You would resist
a WONKA MUD CHOCOLATE BAR!!!
Or whatever you call it..heh..;)

Hmm..
So off I go..




Whatchu gonna do?
Act a fool..!

Today was superbly fun..!!
Haha..don't know if there's
such a word..;)

Precious came over in the
morning..Was supposed to go
swimming but then we got
lazy and there wasn't enough
time..So we just drank Milo and
watched some tv..
She headed to school and I headed
to school too..
Met Shalini and went to class..
We were the first ones there so
we took pictures..
(Precious lent me her cam to take
pics of the band during the awards
ceremony..)
Left class early to go get roses..
There was this shop which sells
nice lilac roses..they were dyed..
But they looked real nice!
I got the whole section red roses
including Gris and a Purple one
for Precious..Wanted to get a few
more for others but they were SUPER
ex!!
Hmmm..Cabbed to school..
Had trouble going in thanks to
the DAMN TURTLE CHOW!!!!!
Her bloody mouth is full of enough
rubbish to fill a whole land fill!!!!

Anyhow..we sat down..
We as in Me..Linda..Shalini
and her friend..
Saw Sherianne sitting nearby..
She's a hottie (and have always been)
and I think Precious has the hots for her..;)
Sat next to her and chatted away till the
awards was over..
Then came the performances..
Woo HOO!!!
the performances were great!!
But not as great as the Band's!!
They really rocked the whole hall
and they looked super cute..
I really nearly teared because I miss being
a member of that band..
It was the only reason I look forward to going
to school everyday..;(

So anyway..
Oh my GOD!! After th awards ceremony..
The girls ate a hell of alot of food!!!!
It was free..(thank GOD)..
And they just feast-ed like no one's
buisness..!! HAha..;)
I can understand..They were really really
hungry..
Met Sherianne again and took a
pic with her...THAT's what Precious likes..
She kept saying that she was cute! haha..
So unlike her..
Well..at least she said she was MUCH better
looking than @^&#Y(@$Y*(@$....

So yeah..after that..took
pictures after pictures after pictures after
pictures after pictures..
Then finally we decided to walk to Compass..
We were shouting to lil' Ash across the road..
She was on the other side with her friends..
We reached there..
And poor Patrick..and Lil' Ash..;(
They had a heart to heart talk..
It wasn't easy I know..
But..I feel so sorry for them..
They're stuck..Sigh..

Treated Nadiah..Imai..Lil' Ash and Patrick
to vanilla cones and I ate corn..
heh..;) and Nadiah discovered something..
Corn and Mcflurry taste great when eaten
together!!
It's tried and tested by me..It's good..!
I swear!..heh..
After that..Patrick had to go home..
so Nadiah..Me..Imai and Precious
went to Esplanade..
walked here and there..took
LOTS of pics..
And you know what? some of them were
'scarey'..The way I took the pics..
was like..as though..One pic was alright
and the next was exactly the same thing
but it looked like a ghost appeared in it..
haha..;)
It was really 'scarey'..but funny though..
Then we all headed home after that..
I guess you can only see the pictures
to know what fun we had..;)
The pics will be up soon..
There are soooooo many..

Anyway..I'm kinda disturbed by something..
I mean..I HAVE been disturbed by something..
And I'm really annoyed..
And I shall not portrait my anger here..
No use,anyway..

Shall sleep till the afternoon heat wakes
me up..
Hope it rains so I can't wake up till evening..
But then again..NOT possible..
I'm bound to wake up from Dumd dreams..
You know what? I just remembered..
DAD'S COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!!
AHHHH!!!!
Going to the airport at 11 something at night
to get him..
Whhee!!!! Shall go to Candy Empire and get
stuff for everyone!!;)

ok..the bed's calling me...




I only speak the truth!..

Didn't get baked today..
Beryl and I decided not to go..
The sun wasn't hot enough..
Ah well..
We need to go real soon ok Beryl?
I'm dying to get baked..Very very
baked..;) I'm sure you do too..

Anyway..Precious came while I was
cutting my hair in the toilet..
I got really scared because I thought it
was my mum..
If she sees me with the scissors in my
hands and cutting my hair..
She'll curse me to become BALD..
haha..
So yeah..I thinned out my hair and
chopped some parts..and layered it..
Gonna lighten the colour soon..
It's not red anymore..it's BROWN!!
Grrr...

Had fun with Precious today..
Was supposed to go swimming
then I got lazy and didn't feel like
going..
So she just made Bandung and
watched tv with me..
We watched this show and there
was a scene where the husband
was tied up by a prisoner who escaped
and put in the corner and his
wife was F**king the prisoner!!
In front of him!!!
With noises and everything..
haha..
Disgusting,balls!!!

Hmmm..
So tomorrow is one of my
first classes and I'm freaked out..
I don't know if Shalini and I are in
the same class..
I'd really appreciate it if I'm in the
same class as her..
Her friends are like SOOOOoo
cool and funky..
And they're easy to talk to..;)
After that..I'm going to the Awards
Ceremony..
From what I hear..It's gonna be a
BLAST..heh..
It'll be my first time not performing
for the Awards Ceremony and to be
honest..It's upsetting..
I miss being in that band..
I really do..I love that band alot
and I'm always gonna love that band
till everyone I know passes out..
I'm scared though..of the things
some of my teachers are gonna say
to me..
Ah well..

Can't wait for tomorrow!!! ;)
Woo HOO hoo!!



Some things last forever.
But not the things I want to last forever..

Deep inside I wanna cry..
But I'm gonna be tough on
the outside for the sake of
others..
Yeah..it's the pride talking..

Tomorrow I wanna get really
baked..SUPER baked..
Then jump into the pool..
Ahhhh...........
That's gotta feel pretty damn good..;)

Please excuse me...




I'm holding on to you..

I.am.tired.
I went for class and
then came back home..
Filled my tummy with
porridge..(urgh!)..
then headed to Bugis to
collect my shoes..
On the way..I saw Steffie..
I know she saw me..
but she didn't look up at me
until I walked pass then her friend
just gave me the looks..
Ah..whatever man..
You sucked..
Don't know about now..

Headed to Compass after
that and met the girls..
Ate blueberry waffles..
Then sent Precious home then
went home..
See? my day was so boring..
Tomorrow's gonna be interesting
I guess..It's gonna be hectic though..
But I'll be meeting a friend whom I've
not talked to in a long long time..;)
Them after that..I get to see my 2 new
funny and bubbly friends..;)
Woo hoo!!

Tomorrow'll be one week since..
Since I lost my mind and
just fell apart after that..

This sucks..!

GO and sleep la!



How wonderful life is..
Now you're here..

Got up this morning with
my right eye tear duct
infected and swollen..
It hurts when I blink..
Grrr...

Oh..here's a shout out to IMAI!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IMAI!!
I love you!!;)

Class was alright today..
This girl I met at Zouk that day
asked for my number..
I just hope she doesn't give them
to the other two malay boys
(or more) she mixes around with..
One of them sat beside me and
and kept asking me this and that..
AND HE SMELT LIKE SMOKE!!
(I really needed a bucket/plastic bag
at that time..I think you know why..)
After that..I had to satisfy my craving..
Had my well-deserved corn soup and
just stonned and looked at the people
who were walking by and looking at me..
Headed home after that..

Had an ever so long nap..
Was supposed to meet Precious and
the girls after their school which was
supposed to end at 2 something?
But they were held back so I met them
later..Hence the long nap..
Oh yeah..the dream..
Whatever your conclusions and thoughts..
Save them..Just believe me..
This dream really made a HUGE impact on
me..till now I can't stop thinking about it..
AT ALL..
It's really very disturbing..
Imai,Nadiah,Precious and Gris have been told
bout the dream already..They laughed..heh..
In a way it's funny..but scarey if you were me.
This involves some of the classmates from
last year..(Karen De Costa,Callixta,Samantha,Kristle)
and some of the girls from band..
(Imai,Wendy and Mable)
and one of my other friends..Skye..
OK..here goes..

We were supposed to go clubbing..
The dream didn't show where..
We had to walk pass this secluded back
alley to get to the entrance..
We walked in a row..I was one of the first
with Callixta and behind me was Imai,Wendy
and Mable..
Skye was the very last one..
So we walked and halfway through
we saw something really revolting..
It was a torso of a naked woman..
No legs..No arms and No head..
Just her torso.
Her legs were spread and she looked like
she'd been raped..
I screamed and then Callixta started screaming
when I pointed to the body..
(Here's the thing..
In my dream..It did state that during that period
of time..There was a serial killer on the loose
and every other day,there were bodies being
reported..unfortunately,we discovered the latest
one..)
Behind us..was Imai..Wendy and Mable..
They started screaming and holding on
to each other..
They freaked the crap outta me and I
ran to the back and grabbed Skye and
cried to her..
She just stood there,shocked..
Then I heard someone in front scream my name..
I realised it was Wendy..
I ran back to the front..
(Apparently..there happened to be this large fan
that was uncovered..So that means..If you were to
put your head there,R.I.P)
And Mable and Imai were having a panick attack
and they couldn't take it and wanted to kill
themselves..
They were fighting to put their heads near the fan..
Wendy tried to pull them but fell..
I held on to the both of them and pulled them
back as far as I could..
Karen was holding onto my waist and was pulling
me back..Callixta was holding onto Karen and
doing the same thing..
(Mind you,this was all happening really near
the poor chopped woman..)
We managed to pull them away
and I yelled at someone to call the police..
God knows who it was..but she said,"We can't
call the police!! We'd be notified in the papers and
they'll wanna know what we're doing here! Then
our parents will find out we went clubbing!"
I yelled back.."What?? There's a dead body!!
We have to call them..You wanna go to Juve
knowing that you didn't report the murder
and they're accusing you??"
She called the police without answering back..
By then..it was 6 or 7a.m.
We were all being questioned individually..
and some of us were napping..
I happen to wake up and found Skye on my
right and Wendy on my left..
I asked Wendy where Imai and Mable were..
They weren't anywhere around us we started to
panick and thought they were dead.
But we walked out f the alley and saw them..
(this is the part Imai found reallyy funny)
I ran to Imai and Wendy ran to Mable..
I cried to Imai and said.."Imai!! Please don't die..
I love you so much!!" And then I hugged her real
tight and Wendy was crying to Mable..
After that..I dreamt that I woke up but
in real life I was still asleep..
I dreamt I woke up and Skye was right
in front of me..
When asked what she was doing there..
She just said.."Oh..I came to get my Ipod..Thanks!"
and then she went off..
That was when I just shot up from bed..sweating..
I panicked and ran outside to my mum..

Man..that was the WORSE dream I ever had..
Now whenever I go clubbing..This will be in my
head..
F**K..
It's freaky..It really is..Sigh..

After that horrifying incident..
I went to RM to meet the girls and
Sakae sushi-ed and talked..
Then headed to Hougang Mall
and bought stuff..
Then came back home..
Still having shivers of the dream..
AHH!!!!
I'm scared to sleep tonight..

Ok..my fingers are tired now..
Hope you have a nice sleep..
Yeah you will..




I regret this..
I should've resisted..

How the hell can I do a test
when the dumb 'Yindian' teacher
was asking me about my race and
what mix I was and all that???
Gee..lucky we didn't have to hand
it in..
All thanks to the skinny geek
who said.."Teacher..I have a date.
may I please leave?"
Can you imagine?? The teacher actually
dismissed the class because he had
a date!!! haha..
Oh man..what's the world coming to??

Ah..anyway..have I mentioned that I'm
addicted to corn soup?
Well yeah..I am..
And it's gotta be ONLY Mos burger's
corn coup..;)
I'm eating less and less now..
And I know why..
No wait..I don't..
I'm just eating less and less..

Gonna get my ears pierced again..
You know? The more there is..
The happier I am..?
It is so..
The other day at Romp..I saw
Angelina's pierced tongue..
Hmmmm..-Deep in thought-
Nah..better not..
I've caused enough commotion
at home with my dad already..
If he can get super worked up
because I cut my own fringe..
You know the straight one?
Yeah..if he can get so nervous
(I don't know why either)..
I think..No..It is NOT a good
idea to pierce my tongue..

My parents' Silver anniversary's
coming up soon..
BIG THING..
Gramps and all are coming..
(DUH)..They have to be invited
to EVERYTHING..
And so..once again..the drunkards
are coming and they're gonna
be questioning me and
NO WAY am I gonna sit there
and take it..
I will answer them back
as firmly as I can..without being told
that I'm being rude..
Wait..Is that at all possible??
We'll wait and see how things go..

I wanna go tanning..
I need to drink very badly..
I need to talk to someone about something.
But I can't bring myself to..
Because I know where the conversation will
travel..

I have to go bathe and get ready to meet the
gang..I think..That's if
Precious did ask them to come..
Oh well..



I should've known..
This was NOT gonna be easy..

Yo ho!
I think I take back what
I said just now..;)
I let myself fall..
But I know how to pick
myself up..
I'm over it..

Anyway..
Didn't do much today..
Just kept thinking about
alot of things..
Last week wasn't so bad..
So this week's gonna be better,
I hope??
I know tomorrow I'm gonna see
that girl I saw at Zouk that day..
She recognized me..
But for the love of Christ..
I couldn't remember who she was
until she said where she was from..
Ahhh..Then only I knew who she was..
Anyway...There's an open-book test
tomorrow..Shouldn't be a problem..
Unless I can't remember this and that..;)

I'm really excited for next week..
Nadia says they need people
for the drumming performance..
WooHOO!!!! Hope she can make it..
And I hope it's a success..

You know what?
I just realised..
The SJC awards ceremony's on Saturday..
And I CAN'T MAKE IT!!!
I've got classes on that day..
Damn it..;(
I can't skip it either..
F**king Asswipe!!
Grrrrrr...
I so so SO wanted to go and support the
band..
Hopefully the timing doesn't clash..
Or maybe..I might be able to leave earlier..
Either that..Or I'll leave immediatly and cab
there..
Sigh..So much trouble all because of an asswipe!
RAR!!

I heard my dad's coming back soon..
That means hell..
He'll start his drinking and getting pissed
and causing trouble here and there for us..
Oh man..
But then..I'm gonna try my luck asking dad for
a new phone..
I hope he gives in because I really really want a new
phone..No wait..I NEED a new phone..;)

And woo hoO!!
I'm losing weight..
I can wear the clothes I got 2 or 3 years ago
without looking obese in them..
Good good..Operation "sticks" is in progress..heh..;)

Alright now..
I need to clear some stuff and pack my stuff
for tomorrow..



embrace your fears..

Why,mel?? Why??
You know you're not
that strong..
You knew the consequences..
But you still went ahead and
just let yourself fall..
Now,you're drowning and there's
no one around to help you..
Even if there was anyone..
Nothing can be done if you don't
surrender yourself..











I've nowhere to run..
And so I'm stuck.

Woo hoo!!!;)
Went swimming with precious
just now..
She came over real early and
slept while then took almost
and hour to change and go
downstairs..
Ryan came when we were about to
leave..So we decided to stay longer..
We played around and he
pulled the string of my bikini top!!!
haha..Lucky I had a float covering my
front..If not???? heh..Well..at least I
have boobs now..;)
my mum was pissed at him for doing
that..Oh well..he deserves it..
Had so much fun with Precious..
Thank you sweetheart..for coming so
early..;)
You know what? I'm darker now..
I've a white ass because of the tan.
heh..I find it really funny..;)

Going out for dinner later..
With Ryan and his family..
It's Ryan's birthday today..
Can't really care less..
Because he nearly pulled my bikini top
off..haha..;)

Alright.I'm getting lazier now..
Gonna stop blogging and watch
Sweet Sixteen..
ALL the BITCHES!!! heh..





I so hate myself for doind what I did..
but somehow..It felt so right..

I think I've not been blogging
for awhile..
Oh well..
F**k it..

Anyway..for the past few days..
I've been terrified..
I've got phobias of this kinda things..
I don't really adapt THAT fast..
Hmm..But I took some time to think
and realised that I've been terrified
for absolutely nothing!!
It turned out alright in the end..;)
Thank you God..
You really answered my prayer..

Yesterday was super hectic though..
Had to go to 3 places..
Nearly had a panick attack because
of the hurrying here and the
rushing there..
Ah well..But no complaints..
It turned out alright in the end..
Now I've 2 more new friends!!
After all that..went to meet Skye
and headed back to my place with
her..She took a nap and I changed
then we headed to Zouk..
CROWDED!!!
I think almost 3/4 of the kids
in Singapore was there..heh..
Then you know what?
I'm so smart la right?
I forgot my I.d..So I cabbed all the
way back home..
Actually it was a good thing..Because on
the way I fetched Ash and then headed
back to Zouk..SO so so smart..
wasted 20 bucks!!
But Ash is gonna pay me half the fare right?
heh..;)
So anyway..there was trouble here and there
in the entry but in the end we got in..
Man..I really feel super bad Imai..Wendy and
Cathy couldn't get in..I felt super bad..sigh..
;(
My phone died when I went in and couldn't
reply them and they needed help..
Hmm..It was fun fun fun at first..
Then it got super packed..
Skye's friends are really really nice! ;))
and Skye too la..heh..
I'm never wearing those shoes to clubbing
ever again..
My toes are RED...!!URGH!!
Well anyway..they played every SINGLE
one of my favourite songs..
And Ash dances so cute...I never saw that side
her at all..
Sigh..I really wished Precious was there..
She'd have loved it so so much..
Soon alright,my precious..?
After all that romping..
Came back home with Skye and died on the
bed..Was kinda disturbed by what Precious said..
But then again...........hmm..
Woke up this morning..
Skye went to meet her friends..
And I lazed around and then went to check out
something at somewhere..
Then headed to Bugis..(Was not dressed nicely..
I didn't think my mum will ask me to go there!!)
And so went there to meet her and my uncle..
Mum bought me a nice vintage puma bag..
Woohoo!!
Then headed to Ps and ate the hot dog I craved
for again!! ;)
Then headed to Toa payoh and then home..
Man..
I.am.super.shacked.and.my.feet.ache.alot..
SO......Who wants to give me a foot massage??
anyone??



Ok..I'd dead beat..






I know..you know..
and no one else has to know..

I don't want this
ANYMORE!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear God,
I promise to go to church
every Sunday starting from
this week.I promise to be
faithful to you no matter
where I am or what I do..
Please forgive me for I've sinned..
Only with your help and
strength,will I stop my wrong and
bad actions.
I've failed you many times
in this life you gave me,I know.
But you always seem to be be
keeping me alive,and by that,
I know you believe in me
and that I deserve chances.
I have not been grateful for
anything you've done for me and
I'm sorry.
But I know I'm grateful for that
one very these very special gifts.
My family.My friends.
You've taught me from young how
to love and care and to practice
all the values and motos in my life.
Yet,I don't do it..I pushed aside what
you taught me and decided that I
have no time for you and that I will
guide myself throughout my life.
I'm wrong and I've proven it.
I think you know what I mean?
I need you.Now.
And I'll do anything..
Anything..for you to make this pain
go away but at the same time
tell me that this is all my fault and that
I've been ignoring your messages.
I just want my doubts to be cleared.
I need you to tell me that I can do this and
It's going to be alright and over soon.
I'm crying out to you,Lord.
In your own time,and if it is your wish,
please help and guide me.

Amen.

AAAAAAHHHH!!!
The first day was quite
alright..except for some
inconsiderate guys..
Oh..As I expected..
There were Bimbos!!
Uh huh..Two of them..
That's right..and some geeks..
heh..Alright!! I won't be mean..
But the bimbos..They @$&*($
@&*($*(@$ @$&*(@&*@#
@*#*@&#*(#..and then they
@#&)@($&*@ &@()#..

Precious came to my house
and then brought me for my
first day..she knew I was
freaking out..and she knew how
to soothe me..
After that..I took the bus with
her to school..And you know what?

Oh man..Just about 2 or 3 stops
after we boarded the bus..I
happened to look at the mirror near
the driver's seat and noticed that
he was staring at me Precious..
WE WEREN'T DOING ANYTHING!!
Just falling asleep because we were
relly tired..
And so I told Precious that the driver
(an Indian driver who looks like a
drug addict) was looking at us..And
she noticed it too..
And I asked her if she tapped her
card and if I did too and she said
yes..we did..
So I thought ok..Maybe he was
looking at something else..
But then after awhile..when I
happened to look back at the
mirror..He was motioning to me
something like..He was trying to
say "What?! huh?? What?"..
Man..who was looking at him??
We weren't even looking at him
AT ALL..I didn't think much of it..
(By the way..we boarded the bus from
Amk and got off at Sengkang..)

Half way through..at Hougang..
He was still staring!!
He stared all the way till we got down
at Sengkang and then you what
happened next??
When we got down and walked
near the the front door..
He SHOUTed!!
What the F**k!
He shouted.."Eh what the F**k
ya'll staring at man! HUH?"
Then he shouted something else
which I couldn't really make out..
He shut the door and drove off..
I was really VERY very angry and
I should've shouted at him but
Baby was in her uniform and
the school was right there..
Didn't wanna get her in any trouble..
So anyway..I called the SBS transport
complaints department and told them
exactly what happened..
Gave them my serial number and she
traced where I was and at what time..
I described what the man looked like
and told her what she said..
Boy..It was hilarious,the way she repeated
it to me..heh..;)
I hope the man gets a trashing of his life!!!
WOooo hoo!!
I felt like such a grown up..;) wHooot..

So anyway..I HOPE tomorrow turns out
alright..
I think I should go talk to the girl
whom I thought was nice..
Hope she's somewhat like me..;)
After that..I'm gonna drag my
mum to go get me a new bag..
Vintage,you know?
And we're gonna find my book..
I'm telling you..
Shakespeare is an ugly old HAG!!
I mean was..an ugly old hag..

Tata..
I have to take a crap now..



I never felt like this before..-Stacey Orrico.

Images of yesterday..






















































There? The monkeys...;)








And they were dancing....

Lol..;)

Aww........:)

Yesterday was smashing!!!
My wish came through..
I did have a great time with the
girls..(and 2 which aren't exactly girls)..
Felt so great getting high and hyper and
just laughing my head off..
and doing stupid things..;)

So yesterday..Precious came over first..
Then we went with my mum to bras
basah to get my stuff..Then parked our asses
at a cafe and had an ice-cold drink..
It was super hot and I couldn't take it..
I just kept whining and whining..
And I think Precious got fed up with
all the whining..and she just kept saying..
"Ok..ok..We'll be there soon.."
heh..;) (Sorry Precious..But thanks for
putting up with me)..
Then..coincidentally..my distant relative
popped into the cafe..So she sat down and
chatted with us..As usual..They talked about
each other's parents and bla bla bla..
After awhile..Precious and I realised that
we had to meet the rest at Raffles in 45 mins
and I didn't even get to go bugis..
I die die wanted to go there and get stuff..
And you know what? Everytime there was
silence at the table..I'd try excuse the both
of us..but each time I opened my mouth..
They'll start talking..It happened like..
about 5 times? We took a good 10 minutes
getting out of there..and both of us couldn't
stop laughing..I mean..It was really funny
if you'd seen it..

So Precious and I rushed over to bugis
and I ordered a pair of nice shoes..;)
But too bad I can only collect it in a week's
time..Can't wait though..
Then we rushed to take the train to Raffles..
Met Nadiah and Jac..and Griselda appeared from
nowhere..heh..Then waited for Imai
but after awhile..we figured she was already and
VCH..couldn't contact her at all because she'd lost
her phone..

So we headed to the place..On the way..there was
this ice-cream man..He was chanting "Who want
ice-cream,who want ice-cream"..
Then Nadiah said softly "Don't want"..
And the man said "Don't want,Don't want la! What's
your problem!"..
Oh man..He must have had a bad day..Either that
or a bad hangover considering the fact that
according to Nad..He's perpetually there at the same
spot near Boat quay..
So we reached the place and then went to grab a
seat..Imai popped into the seat next to Precious and
we got a shock..heh..
The concert was superb..Especially the last
part.;) They were really cute..

After the whole thing..We went outiside of the
concert hall and went to meet Gaya..
Gave her cheeks a good pinching..heh..;)
Wanted to talk to her abit longer..but..Ah..
nevermind..
After that we went to Lau Pa Sat and ate ALOT..
Had stingray..Lots of satay and fried rice..
It was alot for us,Man!!..But it was good!

After that was when the fun started..;)
We walked to the train station but made a few pit
stops on the way..
Fancy 5 girls walking through the CBD area and
singing hymns very very loudly and entertaining
one or two souls? heh..;) that's what we did..
and just outside one of the buildings..there was
a camera and inside there was a security guard
just sitting there..
Nadiah here..knew that there was a camera there
but still she danced and waved at the camera..
She seriously didn't see the Guard there..AT ALL..
So she continued dancing and dancing until we told
her bout the guard..Only then she kept quiet and
ever-so-fast past the building..heh..her face was
classic when it was red..;) ;)

Then we stop at this area near the train station and
took pictures..;) Whatever we did was so hilarious and
dumb and we acted like monkeys!!...one thing we're
good at!! heh..We laughed too much and we had to
pee really badly..Took shots of them dancing on the
way without them knowing till I took the last one
then Imai saw..;)
Took pics in the toilet too..We were that hyper..
We really looked and acted like a bunch of
drunk monkeys..But I had FUN!!
We headed home after that..
Was really shacked but for some reason..
I couldn't really sleep..Kept tossing and turning..
Maybe I'm nervous about tomorrow..?
I don't quite know..

Sigh..I'm really bored now..
Watching tv and changing the channels every
5 seconds isn't exactly fun..
THERE'S NOTHING TO WATCH!!!!!!!
Oh wait..there's a vcd we've yet to watch..
Ok..' got something to watch already..

Sayonara..;)




I'm shining like a candle in the dark..
When you tell me that you love me..;

Just a few hours ago..
I got really really pissed
I felt like slashing my arm
and running around the house
screaming in pain..
But..It's strange how a book can
turn your mood or feelings around..
Although the book's about girls
slashing their arms..snorting drugs..
screwing around and some ending up
in a mental hospital..It made the anger
and whatever else I was feeling go away..
The book made me realise the consequences
of doing irrational things to myself and
getting angry over something small..
But you know what?
It's alright if I get angry and sensitive and
emotional..
My crimson tide's not arrived YET!!!!
That's why I've been like that for quite
some time now..
I thought things over after the book
and concluded that..I'm gonna give you
the benefit of an adult..I understand this
is your first..I understand..
But how come it went smoothly before..
Oh right..the problems come eventually..
I forgot that part..
Just please...Think before you do things?
At times..you think about yourself..and
only yourself..You do..I'll explain it to you
if it happens again..For now..I'm tired..
And I'm just gonna let things pass me by and
not get to me..Just this once I'll let it get to me..
Sigh..I'm beginning to be immune to all this..
Oh..no..I take that back..
This is just gonna accumulate and one day
it's just gonna come all over you like an
avalanche..

Was speaking to one of my friends on the
phone..I blurted out how I felt and everything..
She claimed she understood what I was feeling..
But is she really? Ah well..
I told her that I've not been out in a long long time..
As in..Having lots of fun..And she agreed and said
she felt the same way too..That she wanted to go
out here and there and then relax at Sentosa..
Maaaaaaan...Am I dying for that..;)
Maybe one day next week..since they start their
March hols..I really can't wait for that day to come..
Hope this time they don't back out at the last minute..
But you know what? Just in case..I'm not gonna
count on it and get my hopes too high up..
It's only gonna happen if they're not tired..or
having this on..and that on..
Hmmm..I'll just have to wait and see,I guess..

Moving on..tomorrow..St.Margeret's Band Concert..
Man..I can't wait any longer already..
Call me a freak or whatever..
But it's been a long time since I heard a band
play..I know their Band's a Gold with honours Band..
They ARE gonna sound really good..;)
Before that..I think I'll be meeting Precious and
Yani abit later on then go to the concert hall..
I hope to go galavanting after that..;)
None of us have a curfew I think..
Woohoo!!!
I'm gonna try and ask my mum if she can
Give me my allowance 2 days before hand..
If not..a broke girl tomorrow I'll be..;(


Hope things go smoothly tomorrow..
Oh yeah..I'm not supposed to get my
hopes high..Gee..



Mend my heart..Will you?

I'm in aloooooot of pain..
Every muscle in my body
is aching very terribly..
But somehow I'm
satisfied..hee..;)
Thanks to the gym yesterday..

My mum's epidural went alright
yesterday..
Waited for damn long just for a
fifteen-minute procedure..
Thank God for my book and Ipod..
Or else I would've died..heh..
After that we went to eat..
Well actually..It's been quite some time
since my brother..my mum and I
have sat down and ate together..
It WAS WIERD..But oh well..
I enjoyed the moment..Although
it would've been better if my dad was here..
But then again..I always ask myself..
What/who does my family consist of??
Ah..forget that already..

Watching Mean Girls on Tv now..
GOOD! At least there's ONE nice
show to watch today..heh..;)

Gonna meet the girls later I hope..
For dinner..Looking forward to having
a good laugh with them..



Time doesn't erase things..
People erase things..

A little summary..

-Mum's due for an epidural
at 3.30 today..
-She might not be able to walk again
should something(God forbid)
happen..
-We know things are going to be alright
and let's just hope the surgeon doing
the proceedure(Or whatever the spelling)
has done this a thousand or more times
before..
-I'm off to the gym now..
-I get in for free...hee..;)
-Hopefully I have time to meet
the girls for dinner tonight..
-I was told that Precious can getaway
this Saturday and we're gonna have a FUN
time..with Nad and Des..i think..And IMAI!!;)
-I better get going..
-Before some other men occupy the machine..



We are girls wrapped up in women.

I'll leave the bad parts to the last bit..
Here's the good one..
I was really touched today..
Precious followed me all the was to Ps
(even though it was already late)
just to eat my hot-dog that I've been
craving for eversince the show
started..I couldn't take it..I felt like how
a pregnant woman would feel..
The craving for food at such an odd
time and when she can't get what she
wants..the tears and anger will come
bursting out..
Yup..I was almost in tears..
But then she said..'Let's go now..'
So we cabbed there..
And then on the way back...;( sigh..
:
:
I know it wasn't intentional..
But it was twice in a row
you hurt me..
Maybe I'm the one who's sensitive..
But this time..what you said really
got to me..
Time will make me feel better..

Precious came over in the afternoon..
Was a little annoyed by what she did
before that..Why didn't she tell me
that she had uniform fitting after school
and that she'll take awhile there??
I don't get this..
Sometimes this makes me wish I was
back in school..Other times..I thank God
for not making me brave enough..
Urgh...!!

Tomorrow..
Err..I'm not sure..

you know what?
There's a fire downstairs..
And I think it's someone's house coz my room's
filled with smoke..

Tata..