Back to the future..

Did lots this whole week..
Well maybe not the whooole week..
but yesterday was a busy day..

Well now..on Monday..I can't
really remember..Oh yeah..
I studied the whole day and then
went to meet Precious and the gang
after that..had dinner and laughed and
laughed...(I always do when I'm with them)..
Then went home..

Tuesday..I can't remember what I did..
I really can't..I think I studied the whole day..
And then..Oh man..I don't even know if I met
Precious that day..heh..
Sorry..this is really what BOREDOM does to you..
I can't wait for school to start..

Wednesday..I studied the whole day then met
Precious for dinner..Nadiah had to go home..
Imai was nowhere to be seen..Because..Oh ya..
The poor thing went to get her teeth extracted..
She's gonna get braces on soon..
I heard something bout Griselda..that one also
poorthing..

Thursday..I studied the whole day and then
met the gang for dinner again..;)
It's NOT boring when you're with them..
They still treat me like a part of their 'family'
eventhough i'm outta that school..
They still fill me in on what's new in school..
What's hot and what's not..and what rubbish
has been going around..and who did this and
who did that..;) it's really cool they still know who
I am and that I exist..THank you guys..;)

Friday..Got up early to enrol in my new school..
URGH,please..As we were signing the papers..
I think the sessions just finish and all the
kids(as in people somewhere around my age)
shuffled and made alot of noise coming outta the
classes..(They had to pass by the office to get out..)
Man..one look at them and I started to tear up..
I was trembling and silently asked God if this was a
dream and that if it was..I'd like to get up now..
But NOOOOOOOOOOOOooo..It was a living nightmare..
They were havoc kids and made alot of noise..
Even the staff working there couldn't handle them..
She had to shout at them..
They must be either a year younger and a few years
older..but they acted like animals being let out of
the zoo..
Damn it..I just sat there and couldn't pay attention
to what the lady was telling me..;(
And when we were coming down from the office..
(the stairs is rather dark and lonely)..
At the bottom of the stairs..there was this group of
secondary school boys crowding round this guy
with a bag of cigarettes..
It was very scary..If not for my mum..
I have no idea how and what I would've done
when they were 'thinking out loud'..
Anyway..after that I had a huge arguement with my
mum and didn't feel like going anywhere after that..
So I went home to sulk and didn't feel like it was
safe to meet Precious..

Yesterday..had a superb time!!
Just what I needed..
Went to meet Precious near my granny's house..
Then went to granny's to collect my gorgeous
jewellery from my Aunt..then took the train to
go to Orchard to meet Imai..Then brought
Precious to get her haircut..And she was shivering
before the cut because she was scared of that bung
cutting her hair..heh..and after the cut and wash..
It was super duper short..and she later on got into
trouble with her mum because of it..sigh..;(

Anyway..After that..we were so so so hungry but
decided to wait for Nadiah and Des first..
So we headed to Bugis and looked around and waited
for almost and hour then we finally got to see Nadiah
Des..Hmm..shall not elaborate for safetly reasons..
After looking aroung for Emmelyn's present..
We went to her birthday party at the chalets at Pasir
Ris..We went there and ate some 'Kotek bakar'
and then went for a walk at the beach..
Yup..all of us..we found a nice dark place and sat
down..We talkedand laughed and hahahaha..
I HAVE to say this..
When we're walking to the beach..we heard alot of
frogs croaking..Then when we were on the grass patch,
Precious shouted.."Frog!" and instead of Nadiah
and us,girls screaming,Des got scared and jumped
away from the spot..heh..We all had a good laugh at her..
Well..and then at the beach...
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Uh huh..;)
and that was my day yesterday..

Tiday..I did nothing but slack at home and eat and
eat and watch tv..Feeling very very moody and
I think it's because Crimson Tide's coming..
Sigh..
Sorry Precious..I've been mean to you..
I'll be better tomorrow k?
I love you..
See you tomorrow with a big smile on my
face..;)

I am super tired..
Walked around so much today..
First to the Bank at Raffles Place..
(I was the only one not wearing office
attire in the area....Like duh..)
Then went to eat with my mum..
Then headed to BT..
Didn't find exactly what I was looking for..
Just one or two things...
That's good enough I guess..
After that..my mum and I went to CP..
Shopped around and went to have a drink..
One minute my mum's talking about
going on a diet..The next minute..
A tray of onion rings..a burger and coke
appeared on the table..
I give up on advising this woman..heh..

Anyway..After that..
had a call from precious..
Was so surprised because she was out a
half hour earlier..;) And still..they walked to
CP..what happened to the bus?? heh..
She came with I-mai..Nadiah and Grizzly..;)
Had alot of fun chatting with them..
Precious gave me the cake she maked along
with a peach rose..;) sweeeeeeeeeet!!
I took a bite of the coffee cake..
It was really good..But then she said to put it
in the fridge and then eat it..
So I had it while watching the most
irritating drama..(and it's addictive)..
After that..I took the bus with Precious..
and then took another one back home..
I don't know why..But I seem to be shivering
alot these days..Even when the temp's high..
(Oh no..crimson tide's about to arrive..;(... )
Man..the ride home was so damn long..
But it sort of got me thinking about things
that I have to and need to think about..
I've decided.....;

+Whatever I put myself through..(good or bad)..
I will get myself out of it or pull through it..

+If something has to be done..It will be done and
I will let no distrations get in the way..

+I will heed advice only from people I trust and
will listen to them instead of myself..

+I'm not going to be an idiot this time round..
No one makes decisions for me..No one..

+I am going to learn to manage and juggle
my pursue in music and studies..This is a must..

+Should any of my parents disagree with any of my
decisions in life..Or in any situation accuse me for
something I did not do..I will not be afraid to voice
out..or scream(if I have to ) to stand up for myself..

+If I'm going to do something just for the sake of
doing it..I should die..

+I will not let my dad or mum say anything to
upset me..(unless they are reprimanding me)..
And yeah..the vice-versa..

+I will not tolerate and pay attention to any bad
comments..unless of course..you really have no life..

+I have one part of my dream on hold..and currently
pursuing the other..Whatever mistakes I've made in
this current pursue..I will learn from it and not repeat
them in the next part..

+I will not let anyone interfere with my personal life..
(come on..your only motive of digging out stuff is
for your own leisure..)

+I will not let anyone disrupt my future..
and what I have planned..

+I am not going to let myself get carried away by
bad company and criticism..

+I am not going to let anyone hurt the ones I care
for and love..my family..my friends..and Precious..
especially Precious..

+I will help my family as much as I can..

whhhhheeeee....
That's about it..
tired..
Sleeping.pills.must.take....




Sleep well..and sleep tight..

Tired and Bored is I..
Sigh..It's been boring boring boring..
Thank God for the Olsen Twins..
Hmmm..maybe you don't know what
I mean..
Ah well..

Anyway..On Friday..
I dyed my hair dark reddish purple..
with the help of Precious..
She helped put the dye on..
I helped make a mess in the bathroom..
Like splash and squirt dye everywhere..
staining the sink and everywhere else..
especially when I was washing it off..
We tried using alcohol and nail polish
remover to remove the art work I did..
Most of the stains could come off..but
I kinda turned the white tap pink..
I got scared when I washed it off..
It seriously looked jet black..
Until yesterday when I used the
"special" shampoo for coloured hair..

Hmmm.. I hope for school to start soon..
I can't wait to go to school everyday
wearing what the hell I like..;)
I better not be late for school..
I wanna make a good impression
starting from day one..
(Oh,good God..get a grip..Like that'll
happen..) heh..;)
I hope things turn out great this year..
No distractions,melly..
Good things come to those who wait..
Let's believe in that for the time being,
Shall we?

Well now..
Tomorrow will not be boring at all..
Going shopping with my mum..
After that..I'm going to meet Precious..
I hear she's got a cake baked for me..;)
According to her..it's horrible..
I beg to differ..eventhough I've not
tasted it yet..
But if it's made with love..
It's gotta taste heavenly..
Hope I can find what I'm looking for
tomorrow..Hope mum gets up earlier..
I swear..my taking long to get ready has
rubbed off on her..
Nowadays I sit all dressed..and sweating..
while waiting for her to take 10 years to
put her makeup on..
Considering the fact that I don't wear that
much nowadays..but used to..A woman can only
put so much makeup on..
GRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........








Is everybody going crazy?
Tell me what's going on..
If you open your eyes..
You'll see that something..
something is wrong..

hee..;)
Hoorah..
I swear I'm the happiest girl
on the planet..
Well..On monday..I went to town
to meet R'ai..and I was supposed to
meet the polka-dotted girls..but they
didn't turn up..(I'm talking about my
St.Margeret friends..their uniform is
ultimately polka-dotted..)
Needed to pass them the money
for their band concert tickets..
(Yani,you'd better come with us for
the concert..The tickets cost me a bomb!)
So I met R'ai and walked around here and
there..and decided to park our asses outside
Cine..(and the dotted girls were supposed to
meet me there)..
So we waited and talked and talked..
and saw many people walking pass by..
Like..her friend..I can't remember the name..
And Fox..and lots more..
Apperently there were many SAC girls in town..
And the more girls appeared..the more R'ai
got scared..
After and hour passed and after calling Gaya for
about 7 times with no answer..I got so fed up
and so I left for Sengkang to meet the gang..
They were already seated at KFC waiting for me..
Just before I got out of the cab..Gaya calls me
and tells me she slept in the Cinema and hence,
didn't answer my calls..What an arse..
(no..I mean it..)
It was upsetting leaving Precious that evening..
But I realised we had the whole of the next day
together..;)

And so..Valentine's Day came..Got up in the
morning to do some work..
Then got ready to meet Precious at P.s..
I was already gonna be late..But I rushed out
the door with my brother..and left my keys on
the shoe rack..heh..;) so I ran back to the house..
(from downstairs) and I was sweating like hell
already..Got my keys and ran to the bus stop..
Man..I hate being late..
Arrived at Ps and went to meet Precious..;)
She looked real cute in my white Jacket..
She looked..so....so...Precious..;)
Had lunch..we had giant weenies..
Ok..I meant to say sausages...but I couldn't
help it..heh..;)
We walked around after that and headed to
Couple lab and she got the both of us rings..;)
It's to die for..I swear..and It's really prettier
than diamonds..
But unfortunately we couldn't get the rings on
that day itself..we've to wait till th 18th..
We'll go down to get it..;)
After walking around somemore..we headed
to Esplanade..and made a few pit-stops
here and there at Citylink mall..;)
Went mad in Surfbabe I think?
Saw a thousand and one things I liked..
After that..went to check out Cds at HMV and
finally walked over to Esplanade..;)
Hee..bought ice-cream and chocolate-dipped
strawberries...(Shove one in my mouth and I'll
shut up for the longest time)..
Went up to the terrace and sat and chatted..
That moment up there was precious..
Took lots and lots of pictures..and talked and
laughed..her laughs are so precious,I tell you..
After that..we headed home..
Took the train with her to her station then took
bus from there..
The ride was super duper long..
It was like travelling to KL from here..
There was a massive jam at Gardens..
Grrrr...and I dragged myself home after that..
Had dinner and was dead beat watching
Love Actually..
Cleared my bed..read my book and fell asleep..
;)

Mum wants to go to town now..
Thinking of I should follow her..
If I don't..I don't think I'll ever get
the pencil case I want..;)
Whhheee..
Town..here I come...!!!

Gee..I was actually planning on not
blogging for awhile..
You know..being bored and everything..
And plus..I've nothing much to really
blog about..

What I meant to say is..
I HAD nothing to blog about..
But thank you so so so much X..
For giving me something to
blog about..
My my..You really shouldn't have said
what you said..
Now you just give me something more
to bitch about..
That's what most girls do..don't they?
Since you...you just love going around
telling people that the reason I broke up
with you is because of a third party..
Hmmm..it's no wonder why I love to just
shove everything at you..

Let me see..this might be pretty long..
need a cushion for your ass?

Let's see now..
Here are some newsflashes for you..
Simply because like you said..
You are the new you now..
So why not pay respects to the old you..
hmmm? Shall we?

1) I did NOT break up with you because of
a third party..But of course..Why on earth
would you tell ppl the truth and say it was
your words and behavior that called this off?

2) If you insist I did..please..kindly do what you
do best..I'm sure you've no other hobbies..

3) What's that you say? You didn't know you
were treating you ex-es like that?
Yeah baby..I'll say..

4) You put me through hell..
No doubt about that,Mr. I-can-get-any-girl-
I-want-but-she-ain't-never-gonna-know-how-
or-what-I-really-am..I hope I put You through
'heaven'..

5) How can anyone..ever..buy a diamond ring
for his/her girlfriend..and say.."Even if we break
up..the ring is still yours.." and then take it back
when it's all over..boo hoo..heartbreaking..
But I did learn one thing about you..you will hold it
up against me if I didn't give you back to ring..
I wonder if You shoved it where the sun don't shine..

6) I wonder why you wasted your money..(imagine the
waste of my time) on body tests and everything
when the real answer is staring at everyone..
bullimia..

7) You don't need anyone's help..do you?
Why ask for it then?

8) Bitch..we both played each other out..;)
I cheated on you..(I'm bold and honest enough to
admitt it)..and you lied and cheated on me
about so many other things..
But of course..would you really admitt it?Nah..didn't
think so..

9) With a head like that of yours..Man..You wasted my
mother's time sweet talking to you while I struggled
to study the night before my Physics O level paper..
Where were you? oh deary me..Why were you there?
I think it's because that was the night I cheated on you
and you mutilated yourself ? That's it..isn't it..
Well then..It's indeed a fact that that was my fault..
But who was the one who had a last say and tried to be
domineering over something so minor..Was that the
child in you? Well..I'm not quite sure..
With that smart mouth of yours..You did it..;)
you ended it all..

10) Now since you say that there is a new you..
I hope you've dropped the childishness and
the 'tough' appearance you give others..
Please save other girls and yourself the agony?

Well now..All has been said..and enough said..
I happen to be still in my teens..and you..
technically are an adult..(23 is it?)
I'm still technically a little one..compared to
you,that is..
So err..bitching around may be a normal thing for
say..hmm..me?
But I think you look dumb and too old to be bitching..
Altogether..No harm right? I'm a 'small girl'..
remember?heh..

As for me..
I'm very happy with my Precious who doesn't happen
to be a lunatic..Studying this year is going to be a
joy for me..Hooray..

so..toodles,darling..







Be my valentine?

I suck..
I really do..
Thanks for being there,Precious..
It was a very moment seeing
everyone again..;)
Heh..it's funny how I thought I was
so strong..
Talk is cheap..
I've learnt that through myself..
I thought myself that talk is cheap..
And I didn't learn that from others..
It's super funny I tell you..heh..
I ought to wake up..
And I'm gonna do just that starting from
Monday..I need time to recuperate
over the weekend..
And learn to direct my anger
somewhere else..
OTHER THAN YOU..
Die....OK?? PLLLLEEEAAASSSEEE
DDDDDDDIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEE....


I still think I suck..
You know what? You do too..

I hate this so much..
I can't take it..
It's gonna be the moment of truth
in about 23 hours..I can already
feel my tears filling my eyes..
(note to self: Don't wear any eye
makeup..)
I can see my friends crying for joy..
I can see them smiling yet tearing..
I can see myself wishing I was them..
I can see myself running to Precious
and holding on to her as though for
dear life..
I can see myself texting my mum the
bad news..
I can see myself dragging
myself out of the school..which I'm not
gonna be in or seeing very often anymore..
(that is until I get my driver's licence and
pick Precious from school) Tee hee..;)
I can see myself walking out into the
world outside the world I've been so
attached to..
I can see myself rejecting my friends'
invitation for lunch because I feel too
ashamed of myself..
I can see me walking home and tearing up..
I can see my brother shaking his head at me...
I can see my mum just asking me.."Are you
alright? It's gonna be alright ok?"
"No mum..it isn't..I ought to be shot.."
Hmm...being emo?
Ah.....SHUTup!..

I can't stop going to the toilet..
It's so horrible....;(
I hate this feeling..
can I pls die before tomorrow?
PLLLLEEEEAAAASSSSEEE????
GGGGrrrrr.....
What I need now is a cup of ice cream..
Must.have.ice.cream.later..

Gonna meet Precious..Nadiah and Imai
later..(I think)..
I don't know if they wanna come..
I hope so..
I would like to have a last good laugh
with them..
They are the ones who know how to crack
me up..;)
I hope I can pull through tonight and
tomorrow morning without having a
nervous breakdown..
Please God..I'm praying real hard now..
All I want is to get the grades I expected..
I'm getting very very restless now..
I need to do something..Hmm..maybe I
will take a super cold bath and snap out of it..

Ok!! shower..Here I come!!!!!!
And I might need to take a crap while I'm at it..
I can feel that nervous thingy running
through me again..
AAAAAAAAaahhhhhhhhhh.....

I swear..
You mother-F**king BITCH..
I swear you ought to be waken up..
You really do..
Or if all fails..
GET LOST or be LOCKED UP...
Hmmm..Maybe your'e harmless to others..
Nah uh..You're #@!#&*#$ poison to me..



















I believe I'll grow real soon..
That's what I do believe..

I think I'm gonna shit in my pants
any moment..The more I think of it..
The more I'm getting queasy..
Sigh..
It's all my fault..I've shut my teacher's
advice out of my head the whole time
last year..When all she was doing was
help me wake up and realise that I was
in for big big trouble..
Well..I'm only excited to see all my
classmates again..But that will only
last for what..Ten minutes?
Sigh..Why can't they give out the results
in the morning???
I mean that way..The teachers can tend to
us and leave the other kids to do their own
things..I mean..the cool and rebellious ones
will be playing around..music will come on..
and stuff like that..and the studious ones
will be studying and reading or something?
Everyone's happy right???
GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRrrrrr....
I just don't wanna be left hanging till afternoon..
But then again..I doubt it'll be something worth
waiting for..so..what the hell..
The longer the better..

Hmm..anyway..
Precious came after school.
She was supposed to go for her run
after school..but decided to come here instead..
;) had lunch with her..
I love her soooo much..
I hope she'll be there for me after I get my
results..sigh..

Know what? I got bored just now..
And so I decided to attach and artificial nail
to both my pinkies..
It is kinda hard to type..
But iit's alright..
I painted my nails orange..
Lucky Precious is alright with whatever
colour I paint my nails..
I miss her so much now..
Tonight's gonna be oneeeee looooonnnngg
niiiigggggghhhtttttt.....
BBBBOOOORRRIIIINGGGGG IIIIIII
TTTEEELLL YOOOOOUUUU...

I am bored bored bored..
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still bored..
Alright..
I should just go..
Chase lizards or something..

As from Friday onwards..
My life is over..
Goodbye world..

They said you wouldn't make is so far uh uh

And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry

Cause you have never let it go inside

You worked real hard And you know exactly what you want and need

So believe and you can never give up

You can reach your goals Just talk to your soul and say…

(Chorus:) I believe I can (I can)

I believe I will (I will)

I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)

I believe I'll chant (Oh yea)

I believe I'll dance

I believe I'll grow real soon and

(That's why) That is what I do believe

Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh

And you know that your moves will let them show

You keep creating pictures in your mind

So just believe they will come true in time

It will be fine

Leave all of your cares and stress behind

Just let it go

Let the music flow inside

Forget all your pain

And just start to believe

(Chorus:) I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)

I believe I will

I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)

I believe I'll chant

I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)

I believe I'll grow real soon and (ooo)

That is what I do believe

Damn this com..

I wasn't able to log in for ages!!!

I was bored to death the whole

f**king afternoon..

Did nothing but eat and watch tv..

I swear I'm obese right now..;)

Yay..tomorrow I'm going to Malaysia..

It's a good thing and it's a bad thing..

The bad thing is..I HAVE to see my

grandfather..the good thing is..I get

to go shopping after that with mum..

Free stuff..Oh so cool..

Whooopy!!!

Ok..now you see a sample of my boredom..

When I'm bored..It means that there's nothing

left on earth other than to watch tv and eat..

repeatedly..throughout the day..

Grrrrrrr..........

Anyway..yesterday..

I went to see the Chingay with Precious..

It was our first time seeing it..;)

And I had the time of my life..

I hope she did too..

I brought her to Fish&co for lunch..

And we were sooooooo full we had to pack

some food..We wondered when we were

gonna eat it..But thank God Nadiah

was hungry after her Chingay performance..

So we gave her the food..

It's really too bad I didn't have the cam with me..

I really would've loved to take photos..sigh..

Hmm..

I hope tomorrow goes well..

I really don't want any trouble to start..

(knowing my grandfather)..

He's jsut full of shit.!!

not at times..but all of the time..

Why is he on our planet?

Oh right..I guess there was no space

everywhere else..

Ok..

Goodbye..

I'm tired..

yes..sick and TIRED..

and you just added to my anger..

Sheeesh...

maybe there was no space everywhere else

for the BOTH OF YOU....

hooray!!

Crimson tide's over..!!!!

At last...I'm free from unwanted pain..;)

Well..I haven't really had the mood to blog..

Though many things happened..heh..

Anyway..Yesterday..

Went fot the job interview with Berly..(hee..)

Took qutie awhile finding the place..

Saw this shop called 'Hairy Crab' and Beryl suggested

we eat there..when I commented on the price..

she said.."No need la..After we eat..you go toilet..

Then after some time I'll say 'Oh my friend's missing'

and I'll pretend to look for you..Then we run la.."

And so I said.."Hmm..you sound very confident..I'm

sure you must have done this many times right?"

And she said.."I always thought of it but never really got

down to doing it.."

Oh my..She has the cheek to say that..

So next time of she mentions that she ate at this

pricey place..You'll know what she did..

;)

Well..so anyway..we went to the interview

place not knowing what company it was..

(which I found really funny)

Then we waited in the lounge..

Did stupid things and started to play..

It's a good thing the reception counter

was high and so she couldn't see us..heh..;)

We were brought to this room and got raped

by the female boss..

haha..alright alright..

We were brought to this room for the interview..

She asked us to like..introduce ourselves and

then we were stuck..

I've always been shy..No doubt bout that..

But when it came to Beryl's turn..

She kept 'erm....' ing too..heh..

Then the boss showed us around..

The place looked very nice..

We confirmed that we wanted to

work there and she said she'll call..

Oh man..what if she doesn't call?

That..I'm scared of..

sigh..

After the interview..went to town for lunch..

Ate quite alot..I mean..A hotdog and 2 ice creams?

Then we looked around..and said dumb things to annoy

each other..Well..it was mostly BEryl annoying me..

She tried on this and that..And tried to act cool

in this shop..and then she walked and banged into

the table and it shook..hah..;)

Then she tried on this top and I COMPLIMENTED

her and she said 'F**k YOU!" So loudly..

Oh man..Next time when she tries on

something..I'm NOT gonna be in the shop..

Geez..haha..;)

Met Precious after that..

Had yet another ice-cream with her..

Heh..;) I really felt like a Pig..

After that..we went home..

Sat on the bus and this Indian man sat

so close next to me..and he was

holding on for dear life onto the handle..

What was wrong with that man??

The ipod didn't help the

uncomfortable ride either..

Ah well..

Had a huge headache when I came home..

So I watched tv for awhile and went to bed..

It sucked badly..

Felt much much better when I woke up..

Waited for Precious to come over..;)

Then ate..had some cake..and grapes..

We never knew this but we do the same thing

when we eat grapes..

We'd peel of the skin with our teeth first..

then eat the botak grape..;)

Heeee...;)

It's so sad..I don't know when I'm

ever gonna get my hair done..

Wanted to get it done yesterday but

couldn't because of the interview..and

didn't wanna do it today because Precious

was coming over..Can't do it tomorrow

because I'm afraid I won't be in time for

the Chingay..I really don't wanna

miss it..It'll be my first time watching the chingay..

And Nadiah's in it!!

I'm gonna try my best to spot her..;)

I'm coming to see you, Nadiah!!

Ok now..I'm damn full..

and I'm not sure..but I think my headache's

coming back..

UUURRRGGHHH.....;(

"Love is not a switch that
you can switch off just like that; "

Man..this really sucks..
I did everything normally today..
Everything was fine..
Until just now..
Just suddenly I felt like puking..
I wanted to force it out..but then..
I had no energy to do that even..
Just rubbed oil..then felt ok for awhile..
I knew I shouldn't have eaten the prawn
cracker thingy..I only had 2!!!
Thinking of food just kills me now..

Sigh..I went to bed at aroung 5 plus this
morning..I fell asleep and suddenly woke
up..I don't know how..I looked at my phone
to see 3 messages..She'd come home..
And I wasn't up to get the message..
I read the messages and cried hard before
calling..I felt really bad I didn't wake up to
the messages..Was I that tired? From doing
what? sigh..
I'm feeling very sick and useless right now..
I hope I get up feeling better..
Gotta wake Beryl up..then go for the interview
if the boss is free to see us..
If not..I'll just wait at home and wait for
Precious to be in my arms...
Ahhhhh..CAn't wait for that.."Euphoria.."..
That's what you call it..

I can't believe I did one thing today..
It's really shocking though..you know?
I started my exercise and diet routine..;)
I BETTER stick to it this time..
I can't afford to gain a cell of fat..
Nah uh..not ONE..you hear me???
My mum and I are feeling very sorry
for ourselves..why?? Because we ate 2
slices of fruit cake yesterday at my
paternal grandma's house..
Oh man..It was sick as hell being there..
Seriously..The house smelt of piss..!!
And my perverted grandfather says
"Melly girl..You look so groovy.."
and gave me that cheeky smile..
Yucks man..It's revolting!!!
Then after that..he stopped smiling and
started to give face to everybody
for God knows what reason..
Oh Man...God help him..

Ok now..Cramps are back..
Gonna talk to Precious NOW..
Because I can't take it anymore..;)